So What Would I Want in a Relationship Anyways?


I’ve been a proud member of “Team Single” for nearly two years. I have nothing against strong happy couples. This time of self discovery has been eye opening and thrilling, but I miss the connection and intimacy with another human being who understands me and aspires toward the same goals and shares the same values.

Although I haven’t been actively looking for a partner in crime, I haven’t really given thought to what I would like in a future relationship. How can you know if someone is the right one if you don’t know what you want? Everyone says “it will just happen” and to “stop looking for it” but there’s no shame in knowing what you want and what you don’t want. Be smart. Learn from past relationships and what you have observed

I had a very unstable childhood – bouncing in and out of foster care and experiencing sexual, mental, and physical abuse. I’ve been in relationships with drug addicts and people who have cheated on me and physically hurt me. I’ve been married, divorced, and burned more times than I can count. I certainly know what I DON’T want in future relationships, but do I know what I WANT? Do I know what I deserve? Well, here’s a start….

Trust – One of the most important aspects of a relationship is Trust. This one should speak for itself. This is also one of the biggest areas I struggle with. I have a big heart and I give people the benefit of the doubt. I would like to believe that humans are innately good, but taking a look back on my track record, it’s hard not to throw my hands up and laugh – people will always disappoint. People will always break your trust, but it’s up to you to forgive, learn, and continue to love. Who deserves that? Who’s worth the patience? Who’s worth learning to trust?

Respect – People will sacrifice their worth and self respect so they won’t have to sleep alone at night. They will tolerate the bullshit, none-sense, ignorance, superficiality, and lack luster because they are afraid to be alone. I will not stay in a relationship where I do not feel like I am an equal. I deserve respect. I will not reduce myself for another person, and I would not ask another person to reduce themselves for me. I consider myself an open minded person, and although I may not share the same values as some, I still have respect for everyone.

Communication – There is no relationship or friendship without communication. All of my closest friends keep open communication and that’s how our friendships work. If we want to know what the other person is thinking, we simply ask. If we want to know how the other person is feeling, we ask. If we are facing a problem that needs solving, we collectively work together using clear communication, respect, and trust to find a solution. This applies to an intimate relationship as well. A relationship is not one sided, you need to be open with the other person. If the other person does not feel comfortable in doing so – then there is a problem. Rather than becoming defensive, have empathy and practice being receptive.

Patience – Every relationship requires patience. I personally require a great amount. Although I am grateful for my childhood struggles because they have contributed to my character today; I combat anxiety, depression, and self doubt constantly. Some days are harder than others. Even though I can be a handful from time to time, I deserve someone who is patient and understanding, as well as nonjudgemental and supportive. I will also practice patience and be supportive of them, being open and creating a judgement free zone.

Unconditional Love – I grew up in a religious home that preached unconditional love but did not practice it. I do my best to be understanding of people and their situations and I don’t judge when it’s not my place to judge. People will make mistakes and will hurt you, and with so many factors out of our control, the only thing we CAN control is how we react, forgive, and continue to show unconditional love. Find someone who deserves your unconditional love and who will love you unconditionally in return.

Freedom – I am the type of person who values their independence and I never want to feel controlled. I want to be with someone who understands that. I don’t want to check in and ask permission to go somewhere, to spend time with my friends, or even spend time alone. A strong healthy relationship is built on trust, so whoever I am with needs to understand that. They need to trust me and they need to give me my freedom. I want the same for them as well – I want them to be free to be who they are.

“If you love something, let it go. If it returns, it’s yours; if it doesn’t, it wasn’t.
If you love someone, set them free. If they come back they’re yours; if they don’t they never were.” – Richard Bach

Goal Oriented – Ambitious but humble. Passionate for life and driven. So many people these days lack motivation and stop living. When I walk down a crowded street or ride the bus I always wonder, “How many of these people are actually living?” You don’t have to have a huge salary or even a degree, but what are you doing to contribute to the betterment of all? I still don’t know what my purpose in the world is, but I strive to become a better person every day, I try to do good, and I help people when I’m in the position to do so. I work hard in my career, I educate myself outside of school and inside of school, and I take care of my body, my home, my dog son, and my friends and family.

Healthy Mind, Body, and Spirit – Mental, physical, and spiritual health is important to me. It can be difficult to balance all three, but as long as you are trying, that’s all anyone could ask for. I’m not perfect and I don’t expect anyone else to be. Being aware of your mental health means you realize what your weaknesses are and actively work towards improving them. My biggest weakness is reacting before I rationally think things through. This has been a cause of many relationship issues, but in the past year and half, I have made huge strides in improvement and do my best to think before I react.

Physical health is taking care of your body, which can in turn improve your mental health. I don’t expect everyone to be a gym fanatic like myself, but everyone should be physically active in some way – taking your dog for a walk, yoga, going for a run, swimming, lifting, dancing, etc. Also fuel your body with proper nutrition – but always leave room for dessert.

Although I am not religious, I consider myself spiritual; spiritual in the way that I have a deep respect for the Universe, everything and everyone around me, and I understand that my actions effect more than just me. We should be good people and treat people well because we genuinely want to, not because we fear our actions will punish us. All this world needs is love.

It may seem like I’m asking for a lot and have high standards, but hell, I wouldn’t have it any other way and I’ll wait patiently for the person who deserves all my love.





June 08, 2016

This year has been intense.

I have experienced so much in such little time, good and bad, and I’ve dealt with it all on my own. Of course I’ve had the love and support of friends and family members, but I’ve come to realize I’m capable of being alone. In fact, I enjoy the time I get to spend with myself.

At first the idea terrified me, creating a new life, a new identity, and finding happiness within myself. So much happening at once: finalizing a divorce, surgery involved with donating my eggs, taking a career leap and learning a new role, my client passing away, travelling alone for the first time, adopting a dog from another country, all the while keeping myself busy with online school, training, partying and anything to quiet the thoughts in my head to avoid addressing the real issue: I still wasn’t finding happiness. I still wasn’t at peace. I still struggled with insecurities from my failed marriage, seeking validation in all the wrong places, from all the wrong people, using all the wrong methods.

Throughout the hardships and the mistakes I’ve learned so much about myself, especially my weaknesses and character flaws. Weaknesses are that I’m reckless, impulsive, and emotional, leading me to speak before I think, do before I think, and become insensitive to other people’s feelings. I used people as a temporary band-aid and in return, I was used. I refused to love me first, instead I tried finding love and validation from others, leaving me even more empty, broken, and damaged.

Then something beautiful happened. An experience so raw, terrifying, and honest that shocked me into changing my life, my perspective, and my overall relationship with myself. I asked myself the questions I had been avoiding: Do I even like myself? Am I a good person? What is my purpose? What am I doing to improve my life? Am I happy? How am I going to achieve happiness? What IS happiness?

I decided I needed to change my life. I could no longer wallow in self pity and pain. I needed to pick myself up, dust off that shit, and move forward.

In doing so, I made peace with my ex husband. Derek has been a huge part of my life, I love him, always will, he will always be a best friend and confidante. I’m blessed to have spent the time I did with him, and I’m eternally grateful for our experiences together. I also made the decision to get a second job for many reasons: save up for vacation, pay off debt, and to socialize myself because I have a tendency to become a hermit. Creating healthy friendships with others is second to creating a healthy relationship with yourself. The people I work with are amazing, and I truly feel by making the decision to work where I’m working, I am much happier, mentally healthier, and it was in my cards. Everyone is uplifting, hilarious, there to laugh and have a good time and make some money.

The biggest decision I made was to start loving and appreciating myself. To no longer look outward, but to begin looking inward. To accept myself for all my flaws, my experiences good or bad, to forgive myself for everything I did in attempt to self medicate: the promiscuity, using people, substance abuse, and lack of self respect.

I started to heal.

I have more good days, I find reasons to smile, and I do my best to find the positive in every situation. I can sit in silence without becoming uncomfortable with my own thoughts. I enjoy my solitude, I find it peaceful. I’m no longer terrified of being alone. I can enjoy the company of others without searching for their affirmations. Every day I’m learning how to love myself more and more, and as I do, my outlook on life and my relationships with those around me begin to change as well.

I am learning how to become love.

The Power of Music

As much as I love discovering new music, I also love the power “old” music has to reawaken memories and emotions. Glitch Mob shared an article from the Smithsonian that refers to this experience as “frisson”, a sudden strong feeling of excitement or fear, a thrill. This causes a shudder throughout our body, causing our hair to stand on end. Quite frankly, I like to call this an “orgasm.” Have you ever bitten into something so sweet and decadent that it literally shocked your taste buds and sent a shudder up the back of your neck and head? I also call this a type of orgasm.

Often times when I’m listening to Glitch Mob’s first album, or even second album, or the old industrial Gothic bands I used to listen to such as Neurotic Fish, Ashbury Heights, Zeromancer, VNV Nation, and especially Assemblage 23…. I ask myself, “Why do I like to subject myself to emotional pain and nostalgia?” Many of these bands I listened to when I was in a dark place, or I shared with someone who is no longer a part of my life. Some are bittersweet and I listen to with fondness, being transported back in time becoming one with everyone around me, moving and dancing in sync with the music, feeling so humbled by the beauty the artists shared with us. Memories so vivid and real as if they happened yesterday.

Having such a strong emotional connection with my music and art makes it difficult to share with new people, but I can’t blame them, they weren’t there, and they don’t share the same memories or emotional connection. Instead of becoming impatient and upset with them, I have to take a step back realize: they aren’t being ignorant and disrespectful, they simply haven’t had the opportunity to experience the art in the same way I have.

Glitch Mob will always remain my favorite and most revered group. My most memorable music experience was attending their show at the ShowBox Market for their “Drink the Sea” tour in 2010. Derek and I worked for USC events and managed to make the guest list for my birthday, we fought our way to the very front where Ooah, Boreta, and Edit donned all black apparel, drawing the attention away from themselves and solely focusing on their art form. Their performance was the most magnificent I had seen. The way they moved together fluidly and the way they inspired the crowd was incredible. When they performed “Between Two Points” Derek and I knew that would be our song. Even when I listen to it today, I still consider it our song, even more so now that we’re no longer together, lyrically it’s a bittersweet goodbye. At the end when they performed “West Coast Rocks” I had never seen a crowd get so thug nasty together, it was dope as fuck! The crowd went wild, everyone was a fucking G. When they ended their performance they came out into the crowd to meet everyone, they shook everyone’s hand, took pictures, talked to us like they were one of us, and genuinely thanked us for attending their show. They were humbled by US. Their attitude and love for their art inspired and humbled me and continues to do so: Starve the Ego, Feed the Soul.

I want to share the below song, not because it is my “favorite” necessarily, but because no matter where I am or what I’m doing, if I listen to this song I am brought to tears and shivers crawl up my spine. Not sad tears or happy tears, but the tears of someone who has experienced an ego death and is overcome with new insight. I feel truly humbled, liberated, and grateful for my own existence, every experience, every opportunity to learn and grow, and should the time come today, tomorrow, or 50 years from now, I feel truly prepared for the next phase of life.



If You Love Something, Set it Free

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I can officially say I’ve been single for an entire year. That’s the longest time I’ve spent by myself since I was 14 years old. The amount that I’ve learned about myself and about other people is incredible. Even with the repeated ego deaths and identity crisis, the past year has been a gift. That being said, of course there have been moments where I’ve missed having a companion, a partner in crime, a team mate; but I’ve found companionship in myself, my closest friends, and a spiritual connection with everything around me.

I’ve been observing relationships around me, asking people questions about their own relationships, the strengths, weaknesses, and foundation. “Do you love this person? HOW do you love them? WHY do you love them? WHAT do you love about them? How do you define love? How do you know you are IN love? Are you really IN love or ARE you love?” When you ask those questions and compare answers side by side, everyone seems to have a different definition of love, and their own ways of expressing that, or BEING that.

Sadly, I’ve noticed a trend with some people in relationships. Many of them are in a relationship with someone for the comfort factor. Everyone wants to be with someone. Everyone wants to feel loved. Everyone wants intimacy, someone who will make them feel safe, someone who can take care of them, or someone they can take care of. Everyone wants to be happy, and some people think that means falling in love. But waiting to “fall in love” means you are depending on another person for your happiness. Depending on another person to make you happy is selfish and unrealistic. Happiness begins with you, and you alone. Once you have achieved happiness and love for yourself, then you can share that with others, and no one can take it away from you.

The mentality of depending on another person for happiness and love creates dysfunctional relationships. People begin having expectations of their significant other, holding them to a high standard, expecting them to do this, or be that. People get in these predicaments because they fear being alone and they think they can change people. I’ve noticed with some relationships, one person will feel indebted to the other person for the security they provide. Some people never took the time to heal after one relationship and still have residual feelings when they enter a new relationship. Some people are so focused on starting a family, worry that time is running out, and settle for someone who’s “comfortable.” Do these people “love” each other? Perhaps they do, in their own way, to their own degree. But these relationships offer no freedom. These relationships are based on feeding each other’s ego and numbing each other’s insecurities.

No one should ever be in a relationship solely because they fear being alone. No one should ever be in a relationship thinking that “falling in love” will be the solution to their problems, bringing them happiness. No one should ever feel like they “owe” someone by staying in an unhealthy relationship. Love is free, it does not envy, it is not possessive, and it expects nothing in return. If you love something, set it free.

This year I’ve learned so much about loving myself and loving others. Love is a state of being.

A year ago I thought my world had ended and I would never trust or love again. But this year taught me that love is unconditional. The emotions that I felt a year ago, the depression and sorrow, they were merely a product of my pride and ego. I depended on Derek for my happiness, and when he failed like all humans do, I was lost and didn’t know how to find happiness again.

I loved Derek and I still do. Sometimes I think I love him more now than I did before because I’ve found love and happiness in myself and I’ve learned to forgive. Am I IN love? No. Am I love itself? Yes.

Rejection used to hurt, but now I know that if I truly love someone and myself, the rejection won’t hurt because I’m not depending on reassurance or reciprocated feelings to “be happy.” I’m already fucking happy, and that’s more liberating than any other feeling or state of being. I’m learning to love freely and unconditionally in all areas of my life.

Starve the Ego, Feed the Soul…


Challenge What You Think You Know….


I am beyond excited, I could hardly sleep last night. I’ve been diving deeper and deeper into the topic of love, human nature and our intense hyper sexuality, the flaws in the societal weave of marriage across cultures, and our suppression of free love. The more I study in school and leisurely read books on these topics, the more confident I am in the pursuit of knowledge in Human Sexual Psychology. If that becomes a career, dope. If not, also dope. The more you know.

Over the past year my definition of love has evolved just as much as I have. There have been many times where I thought I finally achieved self love. However, self love is a constant mindful effort, it’s a lifelong journey and relationship with yourself. Although some days are better than others, I can confidently say I have developed a healthy relationship with myself which hopefully emanates through my relationships with others. Having developed a rhythm of love for myself, I started assessing the love I have for others: friends, family, lovers, and everyone in between.

I stumbled upon a burning question as I assessed my love for each individual in my life. In regards to romantic intimate love, is it possible to love more than one person? I felt guilty for considering that perhaps I could. But wait a minute….. what kind of society creates a culture in which a person feels guilty for loving? Call me hippie dippy if you like, but humans have a unique capacity for deeper understanding, this is exhibited through how we communicate using verbal language, how we express ourselves with body language, the arts, philosophy, and so much more. We are complex creatures. Limiting our magnitude to love is a disservice to our species.

In the book I am currently reading, Sex at Dawn, Christopher Ryan argues that the development of agricultural practice is what debilitated humanity and created a less than ideal culture in which we no longer share our resources, but rather we have become possessive and materialistic in a capitalist society. We own things, we want more, we are envious of what the next person has, we OWN our partner, we are shackled by socioeconomic norms.

“What constitutes misuse of the universe? This question can be answered in one word: greed…. Greed constitutes the most grievous wrong.”

-LAURENTI MAGESA, African Religion: The Moral Traditions of Abundant Life

I refuse to believe that greed is an intrinsic human trait. Our ancestors used to live in forager gatherer communities in which all resources were shared: food, water, shelter, protection, and yes… that’s right…. sex. Our ancestors participated in sex with multiple partners to express friendship, to comfort, and to create strong bonds within their communities.

Does that make you feel uncomfortable? Do you argue, “Well that was sooooo long ago, times have changed.” If it weren’t for our ancestors ability to share resources, share responsibilities of raising young, and live in a harmonious protected community where men could trust their children would be cared for by their fellow brothers if they should encounter danger …. I can almost guarantee you we wouldn’t be here today.

So how did we get here? Along with the development of agricultural practice, religion has been no help in the situation either.

“Remember the Tenth Commandment: “Thou shalt not covert thy neighbors house, thou shalt not covert thy neighbors wife, nor his manservant, nor his maidservant, nor his ox,nor his ass, nor any thing that [is] thy neighbor’s.” Clearly, the biggest loser (aside from slaves, perhaps) in the agricultural revolution was the human female, who went from occupying a central respected role in foraging societies to becoming another possession for a man to earn and defend, along with his house, slaves, and livestock.”

― Cacilda Jethá, Sex at Dawn: The Prehistoric Origins of Modern Sexuality

What the actual fuck?

In a world where we are rapidly evolving: creating new gadgets, discovering cures for diseases (mostly brought on by ourselves), and sending people into space; we are also creating a polluted world, encouraging egocentric societies and cultures, and ultimately reducing the quality of life. Although there is no turning back, those of us full of love and brave of heart have the opportunity to challenge the status quo. Love is free and limitless, it is not possessive, it does not envy, and it is not jealous.

So how can a person romantically and intimately love more than one person? What about jealousy? How does one prioritize their time?

Trust me, as a divorcee, these are burning questions in which I’ve had over a year to ponder. Jealousy, anger, pride, possessiveness…. these are all products of our ego. Who am I to measure the love a man might show towards me and the love he may show towards another woman (or man)? These two separate experiences are unique in and of themselves, I would never ask anyone to limit their love. I encourage free love. I encourage freedom and sexual liberation. Prioritizing time? I love my independence and feel happy and whole alone. Anyone I would be involved with should have the same independence and wholeness alone as well. Everyone should learn to love themselves first, no, it’s not selfish, it’s the first step to loving others.

“Despite how open, peaceful, and loving you attempt to be, people can only meet you, as deeply as they’ve met themselves.” – Matt Kahn

I realize most of you reading this now may be in monogamous relationships or may have never considered polygamous or open relationships and think I’m absolutely crazy. Why though? Why is this concept so abnormal and bizarre? Is it the fear of the unknown, are you imagining the worst that could happen? I’ll let you in on a little secret, no matter how much you plan for your future and have an ideal picture of what that looks like, life is gonna come crashing in full force and will challenge any predisposed notions you had about the universe and the complex spectrum of humans. I promise.

“What if economic security and guilt-free sexual friendships were easily available to almost all men and women, as they are in many of the societies we’ve discussed, as well as among our closest primate cousins? What if no woman had to worry that a ruptured relationship would leave her and her children destitute and vulnerable? What if average guys knew they’d never have to worry about finding someone to love? What if we didn’t all grow up hearing that true love is obsessive and possessive? What if, like the Mosuo, we revered the dignity and autonomy of those we loved? What if, in other words, sex, love, and economic security were as available to us as they were to our ancestors? If fear is removed from jealousy, what’s left?”

― Christopher Ryan, Sex at Dawn: How We Mate, Why We Stray, and What It Means for Modern Relationships

Challenge what you think you know.


“Thank You Universe”


I am thankful for the opportunities the Universe presents me to practice patience, express unconditional love, and train my own ego.

Stub my toe? “Thank you Universe.”

Didn’t qualify for Financial Aid? “Thank you Universe.”

Came into work greeted by a shit storm? “Thank you Universe.”

Boy broke my heart? “Thank you Universe.”

Those are mild examples, but you get the idea.

This will sound cliche, but life is too short to spend time dwelling in a negative space, don’t expend energy stressing about the bullshit that won’t matter when you reach the end of your life. There are lessons to be learned in everything around us, the Universe has no fixed agenda.

Sure, I preach about love and ego and so on, but I struggle with these concepts like anyone else. When my pride gets hurt, I know it’s my ego that’s hurting. When I’m tempted to react in the same old way, sometimes I fall into temptation and react before I think. I’m still searching for the definition of love, when in all reality love is different for each person.

What I do know is I am an empath and feel everything around me. I am constantly overwhelmed with emotion and the weight of the world. I wear my heart on my sleeve and love hard. I am vulnerable. I am human. Even when I hurt, I refuse to believe in the intrinsic selfishness of people, even though there is plenty of evidence supporting this thought.

Eat the pain. Emanate love.

The truth is, everyone will hurt you, even the ones you love most. Does that make them a good or a bad person? I don’t believe in black or white. I recently had an experience that tested both my ego and my definition of love. I will admit, I reacted poorly, but alas, another lesson from the Universe. “Thank you Universe.” In retrospect I can think of a million different ways I could have reacted, but my initial reaction was confusion and disappointment.

From that state I quickly escalated to anger and made some rash decisions. Do I regret them? No. What’s the point of regret? Did I learn my lesson? Yeah… calm the fuck down. Did I die? No, then shut the hell up and move on, chuck it in the fuck it bucket and scoot.

By reacting the way I did, I was not practicing love, which bothered me because I’ve been studying love, sexuality, ego, and so on for the past few months. I’m no longer angry. I’ve learned the hard way that holding onto anger and hate is poison.

So what is the lesson learned? Think before I react. Guard my heart. Learn to know the difference between helping someone in need, or enabling someone to use me for my resources, including my time and energy.

In hindsight, I also learned that I am capable of love. I was also surrounded with hope, optimism, and positivity. When you’ve seen the shit I’ve seen, and done the things I’ve done, sometimes a young mind is a breathe of fresh air, a look at the world through rose tinted glasses. I learned to appreciate the small things and to take a deep breathe. I was inspired to study love and the ego and launched into a journey of exploring my own consciousness. I also learned that age and life experience DO matter. However, the positive impact far outweighed any damage to my pride and ego.

So, “Thank you Universe, for the opportunity to challenge myself, to improve, to exercise patience, and to move on when moving on is required. Thank you for the lessons learned, a new perspective, and personal insight. Thank you for the people in my life who practice unconditional love and who are an example to others. Thank you for everything I am interconnected with.”

Thank you.


11 Important Lessons from 2016

2016 has been a year. Whether you’re on the side that had a blast (if that side exists) or the side that feels hungover from the monstrosities, there has been a little something for everyone.

As excited as I am for the adventures that await in 2017, I felt it proper to collectively gather the notes I had jotted down mentally throughout 2016 …. pause, reflect, and create. What follows are the lessons that had the largest impact on my life throughout the year. Maybe you can relate, maybe you hope 2017 has something similar in store for you, or perhaps you can learn what to avoid.

  1. Don’t just go through the motions – Live fully and with purpose. The day to day tasks may seem mundane and ritual, often times we take the smallest things for granted. Absorb what the universe has to offer. Make real connections with real people. Make it your duty to live with an open mind and open heart, being humble and eager to learn as much as you can, and sharing the knowledge you have learned with others. Be present.
  2. Love hard – You can never have too much love to give. Allow yourself to be vulnerable, to love, and to love hard. Have love for your friends, family, significant other, yourself, the earth we live on, the solar system we are a part of and ultimately the entire universe in which we are interconnected. Love with no limits but without blindness.
  3. Serve and give to others – If there’s anything I’ve learned this year, it’s that serving and giving to others is medicine. But do so without personal gain in mind. For example, do not serve and give to others if the expected outcome is to feel satisfaction for yourself. That is simply your Ego starving. Do so with the intent to genuinely help others and to share love and kindness.
  4. Read more books – Read all kinds of books. Read ones that interest you. Give ones that don’t interest you a chance. Make a realistic book list for yourself and start checking them off. More important than reading books, soak up and absorb the information. Read to understand and expand your knowledge.
  5. Take care of your mind and body – Most years I’ve done quite well with taking care of my body, but neglecting the care of my mind. I began 2016 obsessed with my body and outwardly appearance, counting macros and working out 5-6 times a week with little regard to my mental health. I ended the year fat and happy with a winter roll named Murphy, stopped counting macros, and working out 3-4 times a week, but in the best state of mind possible. This following year I hope to achieve and maintain a healthy balance of care for both my mind and body.
  6. Apologize less and say thank you more – I saw this one on Reddit or Tumblr, but it rings true. Instead of apologizing for being late, say, “Thank you for waiting for me.” Instead of saying, “Sorry I’m such a train wreck” say, “Thank you for loving me unconditionally.” This will create a positive relationship with others by expressing your gratitude instead of negativity.
  7. Forgive – Dwelling on negativity and hate is poison for only yourself. Everyone is human and will make mistakes, you will hurt, you will be let down, you will be disappointed over and over again, but as long as you can forgive, you are free and can move forward.
  8. Step outside your comfort zone – Do something new, something you usually wouldn’t do or puts you outside your comfort zone. In 2016 I spent the year single, learning to be comfortable and secure on my own, making new friends, treating myself well, pursuing new hobbies, spending time alone exploring the city, being vulnerable, and learning to trust.
  9. Create – Whether you are an artist who creates beautiful paintings, a photographer who creates amazing photographs, a writer who creates literature, an athlete who creates their own body through training and practice, or a man and woman creating a child to love and cherish …. create something. Start small. It may only begin with a line on a canvas or a word on a page, but it will become more and it will be a piece of you.
  10. Travel – You can fly across the world and backpack third world countries, immersing yourself in the culture and experiencing another life. Or fly to a place you have never been, just close your eyes and place your finger on the map. If you don’t have the means to up and leave, whenever you feel that “itch” where you need to move and just go…. hop on a buss or a train and just GO. You can come back in a few hours, but go.
  11. Learn from your mistakes and find the positive outcome – 2016 had it’s fair share of mistakes, heartache, and headache, but I’ve learned to dwell on the positive outcome of each challenge placed in front of me. I have many people to thank for helping build the resilience I have for life. For being there at the darkest moments, for encouraging me when I wanted quit, and for providing support, love, and wisdom. I am forever grateful for the lessons I’ve learned.

I look forward do the new year after a humbling 2016! Time for application ….